August 12th, 1981

“I must be extremely careful… I must not get overtired– burnt out on work”

-August 3rd

To begin to collapse. This two week marathon of work takes a heavy toll on my psychic energies. I have simply gotten burnt out. This state of mental fatigue affects and discolors my entire perception of life. It is very bad for me to get in this state. It occurs to me as I write, that my most effective tool for handling this kind of pressure and demand is the ability to stay in the now. To handle each day a moment at a time and not allow myself to get into a frenzy by the overview. To approach it not by “what has to get done today” but rather “what do I have to do right now, at this very moment.” I was consciously doing that all last weekend. Today I started my day in a panic over what was to be done.