Again, all this time goes by without writing. Lots of energy, lots of action– yet I have avoided writing. To be very honest, the invasion of knowing that Richard reads my journal, as I know I read his, like a frantic lunatic– gells my feelings.

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Desperate days. Days of no desperation at all.

Really

Just days of desperate things– like walking home from the bus, lying on the sofa. Desperately.