December 3rd, 1977

I go through such huge mood swings of alternately being very social and gregarious and active and being very seclusive, needing to be alone, avoiding any contact– wanting to shut myself up in the apartment and simply-be alone. 

Last Thursday night I very spontaneously felt like walking up the street and going to the bars. At the Country Club I met a nice guy and we went back to his apartment in Bethesda and spent the night together. It was very warm and nice and we both said we wanted to see each other again. I talked to him on the phone last night and am supposed to call him today about going out tonight. We are supposedly going dancing at the Lost and Found.

Now I am sitting here listening to my upstairs neighbor beating away (hammering, I suppose) and I am in a minor turmoil as to what I want to do tonight. Do I want to go out tonight or do I want to stay home and leisurely clean my apartment and be alone?