January 26th, 1973

[continued]

I am describing, I think, the lessons I have learned from dope– and the ways I feel my mind has personally been expanded– likewise my consciousness raised and expanded.

I haven’t learned these lessons just from dope– the can’t be taken out of the context of my life as all this was happening– me– the world– all the forces that touched my world– all my experience since emerging from Rosalie’s womb–

But drugs have played a significant part in my experiences.

Everything that I had described happened to me one night on MDA– the drug seemed to be a gelling agent to all the myriad unrelated events of my life.

Another thing I’ve learned isn’t quite clear to me– as to how to word it. 

It has something to do with these thoughts.

Timothy Leary (not verbatim): The terrible truth began to dawn on me that perhaps we created the states upon which we acted.

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There is nothing without that is not within.

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The universe is constructed by polarities– opposites– yin and yang– light and dark– is and not is–

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the world is like a mirror– what you see is reflected to you oppositely–

when you feel hate for your bother

it is really hate for yourself

when you think you feel love for your brother

you are really feeling love for yourself

Death is the yang for the yin of life

One could not be without the other.

the external universe is a reflection

of the internal universe.

the kingdom of heaven is within.