June 14th, 1977
My philosophy elevates chance to the status of destiny. I do not believe in accidentally crossed paths. The antithesis of existentialism. Everything is ultimately important.
I believe in true self and a false self. The false self is that layer of personality developed and trained to answer questions asked by the world: “Who are you?” (Robot answers) “What do you do for a living?” (Robot answers) The true self is that intense interior point of sensorial centeredness. The holy man lives in his senses and has lost his other self.
Most religious theory eventually involves the loss of that other self. Not my will but thine… etc.
Actually the goal seems not so much a loss of personality as it is the development of a personality living in the present and not decaying in the soil of the past. Our neurotic self, that mangled battered child that all of us carry on our backs throughout life, so burdens us with its pain and hurt that it blurs our awareness of the present.