June 8th, 1973

[after work–]

Feelin’ good on a Friday night. 

Surrender–

The feeling that somehow you are responsible– responsible for the very fact that you are responsible for being alive and that you are thereby responsible for all the evil in the exterior world. A world that wouldn’t even exist without your sanction. 

We have to realize that life is indeed something that is happening to us– not something we’re doing– for God’s sake. 

admitting this and then 

surrendering

no need for the tensions

a niagra of feelings, experiences, 

guided by an experiential 

personal morality 

open open free

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alive, healthy, rational, happy, energetic, attractive, active, wild. 

lethargic, aching, unhappy, sore, painful, sick, dying.