May 22nd, 1977
Gorgeous day. Grim project. I must finish cleaning the apartment and establishing some sense of order to the filth and confusion here. Went to mass with Lynn and George this morning. After church George, in a foul mood over arrangements with Richard H. to drive his old car, drives all the way to Shady Grove, Maryland looking for a bakery. As the ride lengthens the tensions lessen and soon everyone seems in a good mood again. Without finding a bakery we go back to their apartment. They’re planning a cookout at Great Falls today with Kathy and Richard to celebrate Josh’s fourth birthday. I am invited bu decline because I must clean house today. Yesterday I talked to Gayle on the phone and invited her and Ed over today. Now I regret it because the monumental job of house cleaning is leaving me lifeless.
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All I really want to do is lie here stretched out across the bed in my robe drinking beer, smoking cigarettes, and feeling the day pass.
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That’s all I’ve really wanted to do for two years now.