Today is going to be a strange day. Waking early this morning to another hysterical coughing jag– I decided to stop smoking today. —- Wheezing my way through 2-3 packs a day is the final absurdity of my life. —- Miserable day. On top of no cigarettes, I took an amphetamine that Jim had. Gallons of coffee. My nerves were jangled all day. I go to the telephone company this morning– and afterward decide to go to my favorite dirty book store and jack off. I am in a sexual frenzy for nasty sex. I go to the bus station. Two black men are standing at the universals shaking and rubbing huge cocks at one another. I timidly stand at one end and pee furtively watch the action. I leave quickly. Before the day is over I have hit six dirty book stores and the bus station twice. Not much happens– groped once but no genitalia were produced.
May 31st, 1977
May 31st, 1977
May 31st, 1977
Today is going to be a strange day. Waking early this morning to another hysterical coughing jag– I decided to stop smoking today. —- Wheezing my way through 2-3 packs a day is the final absurdity of my life. —- Miserable day. On top of no cigarettes, I took an amphetamine that Jim had. Gallons of coffee. My nerves were jangled all day. I go to the telephone company this morning– and afterward decide to go to my favorite dirty book store and jack off. I am in a sexual frenzy for nasty sex. I go to the bus station. Two black men are standing at the universals shaking and rubbing huge cocks at one another. I timidly stand at one end and pee furtively watch the action. I leave quickly. Before the day is over I have hit six dirty book stores and the bus station twice. Not much happens– groped once but no genitalia were produced.