Absurd day. I awoke this morning with a horrible pain in my hip— barely able to walk. I just go back from St. Vincent’s emergency room. X-rays revealed nothing. They made an appointment at an orthopedic clinic for me tomorrow. While lying in the emergency room waiting for x-rays, I dozed off in the tranquil morning light. It felt so peaceful— so protected— I longed to stay. I wanted to be hospitalized.