I’ve had an inexplicably calm day. Perhaps my unscheduled day off yesterday did me more good than I was aware of. At any rate, I have floated through a busy day with the even energy I usually feel with Valium. John and I have had six days of unmarred harmony. We’ve been together every night and my feelings, nearly against my now cautious will, have been rising to a climax. What a perfect lover he is for me. He is lifted whole from the early pages of my pubescent sexuality. Last night, we were watching the opera Macbeth on television– sitting in almost facing chairs sharing a hassock with our stocking feet wrapped around each other… We began to doze– and I sat and watched his sleeping face, filled with the most total contentment. We hold each other all night long. Occasionally I will wake and find myself on the other side of the bed and roll over to him; even sleeping he moans and holds me close. We are like two children protecting each other from a stormy night.
November 2nd, 1978
November 2nd, 1978
November 2nd, 1978
I’ve had an inexplicably calm day. Perhaps my unscheduled day off yesterday did me more good than I was aware of. At any rate, I have floated through a busy day with the even energy I usually feel with Valium. John and I have had six days of unmarred harmony. We’ve been together every night and my feelings, nearly against my now cautious will, have been rising to a climax. What a perfect lover he is for me. He is lifted whole from the early pages of my pubescent sexuality. Last night, we were watching the opera Macbeth on television– sitting in almost facing chairs sharing a hassock with our stocking feet wrapped around each other… We began to doze– and I sat and watched his sleeping face, filled with the most total contentment. We hold each other all night long. Occasionally I will wake and find myself on the other side of the bed and roll over to him; even sleeping he moans and holds me close. We are like two children protecting each other from a stormy night.