October 10th, 1972

It’s just that the east is synonymous with my independence– my world– my life–

Going to New Orleans– going to the South– for god’s sake would be an incredible joy to my system–

I’m afraid that it would destroy me emotionally.

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□ My dear– if you’ll really get your shit together about school– that’s the important issue– school school school– go back to school and get your degree.

□ Do it! Do it! Go to New Orleans and live with Gayle– see in perspective–

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Lay Lady Lay on the radio–

Georgetown

Songja– Evy–

demonstration 1969

Cold November Saturday morning driving to Georgetown to see Evy’s brother Freddie at his friend’s apartment above a shoe store– clever apartment– oh god oh god

Lay Lady Lay

a cat ran out the door–

oh god– when we all were in the process of becoming hippies– 

Autumn is when I like to wear blue jeans and corduroy and go for long melancholy walks–

     getting high

     getting high 

    getting high is what it’s all about

My cells tell me that getting high is the ultimate cause and reason.

     the spark

I remember walking with Melinda across St. Louis– I loved that fall– the girl’s dorm at Washington University. 

Cold October Twilight

Steel blue crisp

getting dark

honk honk

swoosh swoosh

hurrying along down 6th avenue to the village–

I always hurry along down the street– I want to be hurrying to a warm, bright, comfy little apartment– to the smells of cooking dinner and candles and comfortable blue apartment.

I want desperately to have a home and a life here in Manhatten.

desperately