RICHARD’S DEMISE – THE ORDEAL —- I knew today that I should not ignore Richard’s condition. Although entirely self-provoked– his sickness is nonetheless real. First I talked to Lynn. She feels that when someone is in the process of attacking themselves your efforts are of little use. Like my mother, her basic advice is “stay away.” Guilt gnaws at me. I remember so many things– and loving him so much– and getting so much strength from him. I cannot let him die.
December 27th, 1977
December 27th, 1977
December 27th, 1977
RICHARD’S DEMISE – THE ORDEAL —- I knew today that I should not ignore Richard’s condition. Although entirely self-provoked– his sickness is nonetheless real. First I talked to Lynn. She feels that when someone is in the process of attacking themselves your efforts are of little use. Like my mother, her basic advice is “stay away.” Guilt gnaws at me. I remember so many things– and loving him so much– and getting so much strength from him. I cannot let him die.