9 days in the hospital: yesterday a scan was done on my lymph system to detect lesions or tumors. That was the last test. I expect my doctor will present me with a diagnosis perhaps today. How will he ever know the truth— that he is dealing with a young man who, at the age of 30, has lost the will to keep on keepin’ on? Allan called early this morning— under the pretext of seeing how I am. The fact is, they’re all wringing their hands at the agency as the work mounts. He begins a litany of new business. His voice drones through the telephone and I lie here and think “No, no, no,— I can’t go back to that job”.
December 2nd, 1981
December 2nd, 1981
December 2nd, 1981
9 days in the hospital: yesterday a scan was done on my lymph system to detect lesions or tumors. That was the last test. I expect my doctor will present me with a diagnosis perhaps today. How will he ever know the truth— that he is dealing with a young man who, at the age of 30, has lost the will to keep on keepin’ on? Allan called early this morning— under the pretext of seeing how I am. The fact is, they’re all wringing their hands at the agency as the work mounts. He begins a litany of new business. His voice drones through the telephone and I lie here and think “No, no, no,— I can’t go back to that job”.