Rent notice for February came today. That makes it two months overdue, $1,030, due immediately. $100 telephone bill with a threat to disconnect next Tuesday. A letter from a lawyer in Washington asking for $50 a month until the Garfinckel’s bill is paid. And, of course, the unpaid taxes. That’s another $500 or so. At least I’ve learned to keep a certain perspective on this shit. 10 years from now, I won’t even remember these fucking details. I came from work exhausted from the hangover from last night. So I took a three hour trance-like nap and am now drinking beer and just took a hit of “speed” I bought off the street last night. Commercial caffeine pills, but I may get a buzz. Allan is coming over and we’re going to J’s tonight. I chide myself for this streak of bar hopping. The apartment’s a mess. I should stay home and rest. Fuck it. I need romance and passion in my life and I’m not going to find it sitting in this room like a contented cow. Better to be destructively desperate. It’s more interesting.
January 28th, 1981
January 28th, 1981
January 28th, 1981
Rent notice for February came today. That makes it two months overdue, $1,030, due immediately. $100 telephone bill with a threat to disconnect next Tuesday. A letter from a lawyer in Washington asking for $50 a month until the Garfinckel’s bill is paid. And, of course, the unpaid taxes. That’s another $500 or so. At least I’ve learned to keep a certain perspective on this shit. 10 years from now, I won’t even remember these fucking details. I came from work exhausted from the hangover from last night. So I took a three hour trance-like nap and am now drinking beer and just took a hit of “speed” I bought off the street last night. Commercial caffeine pills, but I may get a buzz. Allan is coming over and we’re going to J’s tonight. I chide myself for this streak of bar hopping. The apartment’s a mess. I should stay home and rest. Fuck it. I need romance and passion in my life and I’m not going to find it sitting in this room like a contented cow. Better to be destructively desperate. It’s more interesting.