I have 3, possibly 4, more days of intense activity at work. I have no vitality or enthusiasm left— and I feel so frustrated at having the work become so totally out of control. I cannot “blame” the company for this. I am the manager of my department. It is my responsibility to be organized and ready to produce the material within specified deadlines. I have not been shrewd enough to pull this off. I was hired as a manager and an organizer. And I am learning my lessons the hard way. Rather than indulge myself in self-recrimination at my “failure”— I must use this realization that has emerged from this horrible deluge of work to re-group and re-direct my activities in the immediate future. It’s just self-defeating to wallow in my exhaustion. The situation demands action on my behalf.
October 10th, 1981
October 10th, 1981
October 10th, 1981
I have 3, possibly 4, more days of intense activity at work. I have no vitality or enthusiasm left— and I feel so frustrated at having the work become so totally out of control. I cannot “blame” the company for this. I am the manager of my department. It is my responsibility to be organized and ready to produce the material within specified deadlines. I have not been shrewd enough to pull this off. I was hired as a manager and an organizer. And I am learning my lessons the hard way. Rather than indulge myself in self-recrimination at my “failure”— I must use this realization that has emerged from this horrible deluge of work to re-group and re-direct my activities in the immediate future. It’s just self-defeating to wallow in my exhaustion. The situation demands action on my behalf.