Home from hospitality at Washington Square. I was very much aware all evening of how loved and loving I feel at that meeting. It is a weekly dose of strength. Last night was a wonderful night of romance with Howie. I am left with loose ends. I have no background, no experience to draw upon to try to relate to another adult male in a healthy, loving way without all those stupid tapes beginning to whir in my head. films starring Elizabeth Taylor and Sophia Loren. Breathless love. Heartache and drama. Hollywood has deformed human love. All those feelings and passion which I have stored in my heart are grotesque romantic visions of love. Obsession. The need for possession. I remember living with horrible insecurity and jealousy that characterized my relationship with Richard. The evil, hateful paranoia.
February 7th, 1982
February 7th, 1982
February 7th, 1982
Home from hospitality at Washington Square. I was very much aware all evening of how loved and loving I feel at that meeting. It is a weekly dose of strength. Last night was a wonderful night of romance with Howie. I am left with loose ends. I have no background, no experience to draw upon to try to relate to another adult male in a healthy, loving way without all those stupid tapes beginning to whir in my head. films starring Elizabeth Taylor and Sophia Loren. Breathless love. Heartache and drama. Hollywood has deformed human love. All those feelings and passion which I have stored in my heart are grotesque romantic visions of love. Obsession. The need for possession. I remember living with horrible insecurity and jealousy that characterized my relationship with Richard. The evil, hateful paranoia.